the one where i went a little bonkers.

In fairness, I have been on holiday of sorts - I've been staying at my boyfriends and seeing our two best friends and their newborn daughter who are down from Bristol.

I'd stuck religiously to points from Wed - Friday evening, and then after having a mediocre 4 points during the day I thought it would be okay to have a chinese - so got a mushroom chow mein (4.5pts) - however, I ended up eating about four chicken/prawn balls and some chips. Not good. I was still within points but still.

Saturday it got worse. Ribs, crisps, chips, pizza, chicken breast pieces, onion rings (!!!) and a great deal of wine. In my defence this was a day long party type thing, but considering I had bought and took round some special foods I shouldn't have gone OTT - I also definitely didn't eat as much as I would have done before, sharing a pizza and not eating many chips.

Sunday - angelic, too much so - 8pts for the whole day and a whopping 10.5 BP's.

Monday - basically crap. I've been really constipated for the last two weeks and in my infinite wisdom thought some greasy crap food may clear me out (I've literally tried everything healthy, supplements, medication, the lot) - wrong. I had a curry that was laden in fat, as well as a small bit of chocolate cake and a small portion of chips from the chip shop. Talk about going off the wagon!

Again, I made sure my portions were small and I tried to keep a total of how many points, I reckon I'm probably about 20pts over for this week.

Anyway, as mentioned above I've had some serious problems in the ol' bottom department which ended up with me having to go to hospital this morning to get some kind of treatment. A half-worked enema was the result and I'm still downing movicol (rank stuff) now. I feel like total shit, so my feelings towards dieting at the moment are at a low ebb, but today I have been fine and will continue to be. It's actually quite funny, I don't particularly like fatty foods anymore - not only with the guilt associated but with the fact it just makes me feel blergh.

I also bought some home scales but they are not as accurate as the ones in Boots - which after weighing myself today came up as 16st 2lbs, quite a bit more than the 15st 13lbs it showed at the end of last week :( However, there is a big blockage.

Have decided that I am not going to WI tomorrow for a variety of reasons a) I feel rubbish and do not fancy a bus journey from the coast to Norwich if I'm feeling dodgy tummy wise, b) the result isn't going to be reflective due to blockage and c) I've not really tried very hard this week. Probably the wrong choice but I am still debating whether to go or not - if I've put on weight I will take it but I'm more scared of getting on the bus and needing the loo!

Anyway, this has been all in all a bit TMI, so sorry about that, but felt I needed to explain in light of the bad choices I've made this week. Consider the line drawn!

Happy Slimming =)

Missyb xxx